So here’s my theory: 

God made circles and he made squares. 

circles fit together and so do squares, and then squares fit in circles. 

but then God made 1 triangle, 1 diamond, 1 octagon, and 1 star, and so on…

these shapes are beautiful, they are unique, people are attracted to them. But when someone tries to fit with them, no dice. These shapes are God’s masterpieces, but unfortunately, they do not find a shape to share their beauty with. 

I’m a star, I’m happy, and proud. But it’s hard, and I don’t know if I can really do it. 

My question is, what shape are you?  

Are you a circle or square? They are wonderful don’t worry. 

Are you something else? What are you? and if you could give up that individuality to become a circle or square, would you? 

I’m not sure what I would do. 

Do I have these feelings? 

and why

Does only singing help?

and why

can’t I sing all of the time?

I don’t want to jinx anything, but it seems like things are going really well. Am I scared that they’ll stop, FUCK yes, but I’m so happy it doesn’t matter. 

I feel anxious. 

I cause the problems I have. But isn’t that what life is? 

causing problems for yourself so you can bitch to  your kids about not doing what you did?

the question is, will I ever have them?